Greetings everyone! Juz set up my mind to start my own blog.. so TaDa!! The midi in my blog is Guan Huai Fang Shi.. a v touching song in e local 7th festival show.. my all time favourites n my dad's too......
Anyway life has been so full of crap recently. Lost someone dear to me, my dad. He just pass away without any clues.. Everyone in the family is being shaken n jerk out of their common life all of a sudden. I was suppose to be at chalet celebrating my der's bday but in the middle of everything has to rush to ttsh n began my 1 whole week of torture.... Though everything's already over for 2weeks, i'm still sort of stuned.. I'm still dreaming right?? Y cant i wake up from the nightmare?? Sighz.. last week i'm still trying to settle in to my life.. trying to get back on my studies.. trying to concentrate on the things i'm doing.. but everything i do i get distracted n v disorientated... i really feel like shouting everything out but then felt so empty.. wats there to shout? wanna even see a psychology cuz i had problem sleeping for the whole of the past week..
After this i really think that life is so fragil.. so full of suprising, sometimes scary things can happen every second, every minute, every day. Now i really v appreciate my family members(not that i didnt appreciate them before or didnt love them k!!). Really v Yi2 Han4 i didnt spend more time with my dad when he's ard. I still remember i was talking to him on going to chalet with him n my family the last night he's still around.. (*_*).. Hope my mum n everyone else in the family r coping well, but even i like this le i wonder how everyone else is.. maybe i;m weak.. really weak tt's y i felt so extreme.. sigh.. hope my mum is coping well. she's been really strong but i wonder how she feels inside.. sigh..
I really wanna thankz my friends for being there for me. Esp mx n chris n kl who stayed overnight with me on one of the night at the wake. Most of all is my der Nicholas! he has been my source of support all along. Thankz der, mx n everyone!
Used to like the rain, cold, the sunset, the night.. think they r so si qing hua yi, so dreamy so nice.. but not now.. NOW, i dun like dreams cuz they reflect things that r so sad.. i dun like the rain because it somehow indicates that someone is sad or someone has passed away(my dad pass away on a rainy day...), i dun like the cold cuz it feels like dying.., i dun like the sunset cuz it means night is coming n i dun like the night cuz i cant sleep n when its so cold n so HAN2 de gan jue..
Oh maybe tml can go out with nicholas n hopfully in his (family)car? heh! Cuz he juz gotten his driving license yesterday n of cuz he's so v happy! felt happy for him too cuz he passed on e first time! heh.. Way to go honey.. Mx hope u're well from ur flu soon! weekends here so hope u had a good weekend break! Have fun n plenty of rest everyone! Sry for the long blog but See ya guys soon!
~TC & TTFN~
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